Two nights ago I had dream that I can't seem to get out of my mind. I had been in some sort of an accident, and had been hospitalized. Something had happened to my head, and I needed surgery right away. I was not conscious, but I was watching everything happen from above. I heard a voice and was told that through this procedure I would lose part of my memory. I had the choice of what I would get to remember. The decision I would make would effect me the rest of my life. I was asked to choose between the two things I love more than anything else in this life. The Gospel of Jesus Christ, or my Family. I can still feel the confusion, sadness and pure distaste for the idea of forgetting one of them. Then I would have to start over, with my family, or with my testimony of this gospel. As I looked down from above as different nurses and doctors worked to begin surgery. I contemplated the seriousness of the decision I needed to make. I thought of my amazing family, the blessing and help they have been to me; known and unknown. I also thought of the time and effort I have put into gaining a strong testimony of the things I have come to believe so deeply. Through all of this thinking and contemplating my decision, I could not make one. I was not trying to be defiant to the voice that asked me to make that decision, but I merely could not come up with an answer to give.
As I woke up without a decision made I still have thought over and over again the decision I would make. I cannot make the choice. I would rather have one mightier then I make that decision. I love this Gospel, I love who I have become and continue to become because of it. I love my family. They have helped me to gain this testimony. They have helped me to become who I am. I believe that Family and the Gospel of Jesus Christ are inseparably connected. The family is the basic social unit of time and all eternity. I do believe that if I did "forget my testimony" my family would be at my side helping me to gain it once again. I believe that if I forgot my family the Gospel of Jesus Christ would lead me to them. I hope I will never have to make that decision, but I am glad that God has given me this time to think more deeply about what those two things mean to me. How truly important they are to me. I hope that we all can notice the way we REALLY feel about our families and the Gospel. Just a little food for thought. Hope you enjoy.